To or Not plus some Christmas Joy

Le Sigh

To add or not..that is the question..to not add is probably the proper answer..but whatever...GAH!!!

Okay, that really isn't the point I just kind of had one of those weird spastic moments I have sometimes, you know..when that "what if" guy creeps back into your life and you don't know whether to beat him senseless, ignore him and go on with your life or attempt a little friendship type thing.

Blah, I don't know..and HONESTLY, I DON'T CARE'

I am sick, sick, sick of this game..and really just want to smack him senseless for all the pain he put me through then send him off to his little blah blah blah

JEALOUS, much???

On the other hand...Brandon is amazing..I was kinda of doubting our relationship..Winter does HORRIBLE things to my psyche, I am pretty sure I have S.A.D (Seasonal Affective Disorder)..it exists, trust me, I am psych major :-D..and idk..it just kind of clicked...it is weird. I adore him.

Although, I think he might be a wee bit annoyed with me because I am so adamant about seeing the new Johnny Depp movie "Sweeney Todd"..which is going to be awesome. I can't wait to receive the book and I am going ask for the soundtrack for Christmas..or something..Holy crap I am excited..Borat sings, Depps sings..Snape sings..in one of the BEST musicals ever written. YAY

I wanted to do like a whole night of it because we didn't get to see each other for our three year anniversary, nor for my birthday and not even for Christmas (me and the fam will be in loverly Branson)...but he is being weird, oh well.

Speaking of Christmas, I have had my Christmas tree up since after Thanksgiving Break (I think it rocks)..you can find pictures of it here. It is only like a foot and half tall..and shocking pink. Sometime tomorrow (possibly) I will add some more like daylight pictures for you to see it better.

Well I really must go so I can get some studying for my retake of the t/f questions on Exam 1 of my CJ class. It is a long story..but I am an idiot and my professor rocks...