::GLARES::

He has always loved her, he never loved me, I just this thing to fill a hole while she was with someone else. I get it now, I really, really do. It all makes sense. God, I am such a fucking idiot. Why could I have not seen that? I wasted, well, not really wasted, because I enjoyed a lot of it..well, IDK...Robotics wouldnt have been as fun if it wasn't for the fact I tried so hard and I had other great people to hang out with. Even if most of them had to pretend to hate me because I was the "evil" ex-gf of their best friend, but hey, when he wasn't around, they were great. I will look back at my experiences of Robotics and I will remember every single one of them. It is the reason why I am doing the scrapbook really, idk.

Right now, I have pissed off my father and he is eratically driving around town, so I am a little scared about that b/c he can do some pretty rash things. If he isn't here my 4:15 I am going to call him to make sure he is ok and stuff.

I haven't felt this much like crap since I was diagnosed with depression. People should just come over and make me all happy again. I really could use some friends, some real friends. And some fun, play badminton, go the park..idk..SOMETHING...ANYTHING

Hmmm...I might just have to go sit outside with my IRIVER just rocking it to music and such.

GOD, I hate Marcus Daniel Kautz with so much passion. I have to say, I hate him more then Alex..no,no,no...I hate him more then I hate Katy.

If you know anything about how I feel about Katy, that means a l0t.

That is all
Katrina

Update: 3:40am Tuesday (haven't gone to bed yet)

Ten Things I Learned Today (in no particular order)
1) Matthew Brodrick is gay
2) Brandon doesn't know what Chucke Cheese is
3) Birds like to stand still and make you think they are a statue
4) When your hair is clean, it looks lighter
5) Tennis shoes hate me
6) Wireless internet connections don't go through wood very well
7) Always bring your camera with you, you never know when there will be something you need to take a picture of
8) Cary Elwes (seen in Saw and Princess Bride) was in Glory
9) Being pestered every 5 min to restart your computer is freaking annoying
10) I could never win Ben Stein's money, but I know a bunch of random pop culture facts.

Everyday I am going to make a list of 10 things I learned that day because people say you learn something everyday. If I don't have internet in London I will keep a journal of such thoughts to post when I get back.

Well, I am getting sick without sleep, so I should go do that.

Night folks,
Katrina